Winston wrote: ↑May 26th, 2021, 7:59 pm
What does Tsar have exactly? Why doesn't he give specific details and what the doctor said? Why would Tsar pretend to be dying? Strange. Doesn't make sense. Why would he want such fraudulent attention?
They haven't tested me like I would get in the EU, Mexico, India, or even Southeast Asia or the Middle East. That is why I was practically about to just go to Mexico early (and I still might). I am really pissed at the incompetence of many hospitals and there will be lawsuits. Unlike the Game of Thrones motto "Winter is Coming," if I am able to get a lawyer to take my case on contingency, 2 hospitals and a few doctors will be getting lawsuits for medical malpractice (more if the lawyers advise me to file lawsuits against every hospital that gave me a wrong diagnosis and every doctor that gave me a wrong diagnosis or treatment. Tomorrow is the big day where hopefully a specialist doctor takes me seriously and does tests.
I honestly thought I was dying and I still might be. I could survive but be messed up for the rest of my life. I could survive and be fine but maybe be infertile and unable to have biological offspring, which is essentially a form of genetic death. I just hope it is destiny that I live. If I live, it will be a second chance. If I survive, recover, regain my strength and my health, and am still fertile, then it will be probably a miracle.
I have diagnosed myself after having a level head, looking back at everything, and judging by how I had worms moving beneath my skin, working their way into some veins. I honestly hope those veins recover and I regain my strength in my biceps and muscles, and my inside organs go back to normal once I get the proper treatment.
I am really pissed in many ways at America that just got added to how pissed I was when I left because of the incompetence of the US healthcare system when it comes to the diagnosis of parasites and taking people seriously.
I have Schistosomiasis. I diagnosed myself and am going to wait for the official diagnosis. If the US healthcare system turns out to be incompetent, then I am paying 100% out of pocket to be diagnosed in Mexico. If I get diagnosed and treatment in the US, then I go to Mexico at my 100% best. Really hoping to be in Mexico by June 21 if possible and at least back to 95% health. I doubt I will ever be at 100% health again like I was in Bulgaria but there is always a chance.
There will be an even greater lawsuit against US hospitals if I have to go to the European Union or Mexico for a diagnosis...
Medical malpractice, personal injury, emotional distress, pain and suffering...that's why that maybe I am part of a Divine Test like Job in the Bible. Maybe it is part of a divine test to teach me lessons and then to reward me. If I could get a $500,000 settlement and I got half of it after the lawyer gets their cut, I would be fine with it...$250,000 is enough for me to live anywhere, get a girl, and invest it to earn $1,000-$2,500 a month.
I will be different if I survive. I won't take life or time for granted. I was really leaning towards getting any beautiful, kind girl as a first girlfriend or FWB but not value her if she wasn't a virgin. I am open to any girl at this point and will actually value her as more than just someone to use for sex, companionship, and having offspring. I won't be as prideful anymore or as hateful or put down anyone or everyone I can just because I can.
I won't be perfect but I will be a better person.
This scene from the Saw series really sums up death. I watched it and understood its message...but actually seriously believing I would die, I actually felt it. It is true...and people don't understand how true it is. Maybe God, or the divine, or the cosmos took mercy on me because they know I learned a lesson and will be better, and a better person. But I could still die, I have no idea at this point.
And I am essentially also feeling this scene...especially with hospitals and the US healthcare system...
Tomorrow is a very big day...it determines everything...